Point A. To Point B.

by | Sep 19, 2009 | This Is The Past

Where do I go from here? I feel like I am walking down a very thin line and it’s imperative to just get through this without stopping; without thinking too much, without feeling too much.  From point A. to point B. Just do it. Honestly, I am not sure I can. I...

Stay Alive..

by | Sep 18, 2009 | This Is The Past

If I am lost for a day; try to find me But if I don’t come back, Then I won’t look behind me All of the things that I thought were so easy Just got harder and harder each day December is darkest and June is the light But this empty bedroom Won’t make...

Doubt+Fear=?

by | Sep 17, 2009 | This Is The Past

So those of you that know me, and read my blog for updates that A. I am either too chicken shit to tell you myself (or) B. Don’t really matter in the grand scheme of things. Then you know what I am going through right now. (And if you don’t know me, then...

Oh Shit.

by | Sep 15, 2009 | This Is The Past

So yesterday was quite literally a day that I never saw coming. God, how could I? I took my blog silent, wasn’t going to let anyone in so that I could rant and rave in privacy. However, I didn’t really do any ranting, certainly no raving. And today, I have...

Plan for the future, live in the present.

by | Sep 13, 2009 | This Is The Past

So, no. I have not given up :) I am still here, still kicking … and you had better believe that I will never stop trying, never stop reaching … I will be the first to admit that some days are harder than others. But no, not giving up. There is something to...

Delicate Balance

by | Sep 8, 2009 | This Is The Past

I feel like I am done. At what point, when you’ve fallen so low, is it probably better to just give up, to just give in? If I take a look at all the important areas of my life, I am behind or have fallen short in practically every area. How did I get here? I...

Ug.

by | Sep 8, 2009 | This Is The Past

The morning started out OK, I got up early, started to get some work done. But then right before I was to take my daughter to school, we had a huge fight that resulted in her running off to school crying because I refused to take her and she was afraid of being late....

Never Ending Monday

by | Sep 7, 2009 | This Is The Past

I keep looking at the clock, hoping it will be later, but today does not seem to be working in my favor.. It is the NEVER ENDING MONDAY. I feel like ranting a little tonight.. I am in a mood.. And if pressed to explain why, well.. I am not sure that I could.. Maybe it...

The Road To You

by | Sep 5, 2009 | This Is The Past

Today has been a terrifically unproductive day. I’ve spent most of the day in bed. Cuddling my babies, thinking, watching random Disney movies,  taking it easy, thinking a little more. I am sitting in my bed now on my laptop. My sweet daughter has set me up with...