Plan for the future, live in the present.

by | Sep 13, 2009 | This Is The Past

So, no. I have not given up :) I am still here, still kicking … and you had better believe that I will never stop trying, never stop reaching … I will be the first to admit that some days are harder than others. But no, not giving up. There is something to...

Delicate Balance

by | Sep 8, 2009 | This Is The Past

I feel like I am done. At what point, when you’ve fallen so low, is it probably better to just give up, to just give in? If I take a look at all the important areas of my life, I am behind or have fallen short in practically every area. How did I get here? I...

Ug.

by | Sep 8, 2009 | This Is The Past

The morning started out OK, I got up early, started to get some work done. But then right before I was to take my daughter to school, we had a huge fight that resulted in her running off to school crying because I refused to take her and she was afraid of being late....

Never Ending Monday

by | Sep 7, 2009 | This Is The Past

I keep looking at the clock, hoping it will be later, but today does not seem to be working in my favor.. It is the NEVER ENDING MONDAY. I feel like ranting a little tonight.. I am in a mood.. And if pressed to explain why, well.. I am not sure that I could.. Maybe it...

The Road To You

by | Sep 5, 2009 | This Is The Past

Today has been a terrifically unproductive day. I’ve spent most of the day in bed. Cuddling my babies, thinking, watching random Disney movies,  taking it easy, thinking a little more. I am sitting in my bed now on my laptop. My sweet daughter has set me up with...

Sometimes love is not enough…

by | Aug 18, 2009 | This Is The Past

August. If I thought June and July were rough, August has blown me out of the fucking water. I feel a little beaten, a little bruised. I am wondering when this year is going to start turning around, it has to, right??  And the strangest part is that there have been so...

The voice in my head, is not who I am.

by | Jul 31, 2009 | Gallery

Let’s take a better look Beyond our storybook And learn our souls are all we own Before we turn to stone Let’s go to sleep with clearer heads And hearts to big to fit our beds And maybe we won’t feel so alone Before we turn to stone And if you wait for someone else’s...

Oh Where to begin…

by | Jul 29, 2009 | This Is The Past

First, things have been insane. Insanely good. Insanely REAL. Insanely Strange. Insanely hurtful. Insanely upsetting. July has certainly been a month to FEEL things. Intense things. OK … Deep breath, only three more days and counting … August will HAVE to...