Ok, Mr. K. I am calling you out.. Simply because I can :) But first.. A little background info..

I met Mr. K (like many of my recent boyfriends) online. Yes, I know.. I was creeped out at first too, but honestly, in this day and age and given my line of work.. I just don’t meet very many eligible men. [Not near enough].. SO.. Taking my life literally in my own two hands, I have signed up for several different online dating sites (Why several? Well, because I believe in spreading the love around as much as I can). Hmm. I didn’t mean for that to sound like a double entendre. It’s not like that, I promise.

{Mr. K.} We were drawn to each other almost instantly. It really felt like the stars and planets had all properly aligned themselves just for us. It was exciting, and very hot :) It all played out like a b-rated chick flick. It was around Valentines day, there was romance and really really great sex. We dated each other exclusively for an entire (wait for it) -Month And A Half- Then.. One day, he just disappeared. An email, stating that he wasn’t feeling ‘very good about himself’. [It’s not you, it’s me] And then any other attempt from me to contact him, <emails, phone calls, text messaging> was simply just not returned..  (And oh, how I begged). [Hey, I’m not proud of it]. I even egged him on, taunting him a little. I just wanted him to tell me to fuck off, ANYTHING. I needed closure, damn it! WTF??

It was then that it hit me. My Mr. K. was in fact my rebound guy. Maybe he had known this all along and for whatever reason it took me a little longer ;) I hadn’t been played so much as given an opportunity.. Bouncing back from Rebound Guy. I will admit that it was tough. I was still reeling from the sting of my husband leaving me for his adulteress girlfriend. So, this kind of felt like a double wammy. [What the hell was wrong with me??]

I decided right then and there that I was looking for proof of my worth in all the wrong places. I didn’t need a guy (attractive or otherwise) to tell me I was worth something. I KNOW I AM WORTH SOMETHING!! I am beautiful, and talented, and smart, and funny, and generous, and so much more than that.  (thanks mom). Instead of throwing myself at the VERY FIRST guy that paid  me more than a passing glance, why not channel my energy into something a little more beneficial. Like, YOGA :)

And that’s when I met, Tom..  hehehe ;)

But I digress.. {Mr. K} Admittedly, this brief relationship really screwed with my mind.. He was older than I was. (40) And I like the way that he felt so grounded (ha) in his reality. He had never been married (which probably should have been a red flag!!) [Hey, I am new to this!] I was willing to give him the benefit of the doubt, because that is just how I roll :) Mr. K, was just so interesting. He’d lived in India and Japan. When he was 23 he decided to buy a ticket around the world. Yes, he got stuck in Japan for 3 years when he ran out of money, but he was interesting dammit, and I was willing to overlook many of his flaws.. (Snoring like a freight train for one!)

I think the main thing about Mr. K. Is for whatever reason, be it wishful thinking or not, I know our paths will cross again. This is NOT to say that I will be getting involved with him, because.. HA.. Not a chance in hell.. But, we had too many things drawing us together for it to only be a brief encounter… I can’t explain it.. Mr. K, was one of those people for me that I just felt instantly connected with, familiar with. Like we’ve been here before, in some other time or place. We just fit. So, to have it so quickly snatched away.. Well. Like I said before, maybe I still just need closure. Damn it.