Do you ever get the feeling that you are supposed to be doing something that you are not? I don’t mean forgetting to close the garage door at night, or picking up milk from the store.. But that there is something that you are simply just MEANT to do, and for whatever reason.. You aren’t.

Now, I know that we ALL have those deep rooted dreams.. Those long past nostalgic feelings or even small pangs of regret. Things we wish we would have done, perhaps things we wish we hadn’t done.  Maybe it’s not getting that college degree, perhaps you always thought you’d be a doctor or a lawyer but instead you chose a family or a different path. Maybe, it’s actually settling down, with that person whom you thought you’d be spending the rest of your life with, then realizing that both of you are completely miserable with each other. For me, I could say that one small regret for myself would be not following my dream of going to Broadway, not realizing at a younger age that I could have made that my reality.. Who knows. I might have gotten there, and then been laughed off the stage.. (did i mention that I am not the best dancer? I love it, but for whatever reason; god was cruel and blessed me with a lack of natural rhythm. To find that rhythm, I need exactly 3 shots of vodka mixed with a little cranberry juice) ha ;)

However, That’s not really what I am talking about either..  I think what I am referring to could probably be explained as destiny, or fate.. The life path that you are supposed to be following.. The lives you are supposed to touch, the people whom you are supposed to spend your life with..

Do you believe in definites? Do you believe that there is just one person that can truly make you happy, and that you should go through your life hoping, praying that you are able to find them. And not only find them, but find them at the right time, in the right way.. For BOTH of you..

Or, do you believe that there are MANY people that given the chance.. Can make you happy.. Genuinely make your life… BETTER. Yes, I think I am talking about soul mates. At one point in my life, I really did believe I had the answer to this.. Now I am entirely unsure.

So, why my nostalgic reflections? Perhaps it’s this trip I’ve been on. Plenty of alone/downtime to think and ponder. I think maybe i might miss my ‘normal’ life because it allows me less thoughtful avenues of existence.. Whenever I remove myself from the everyday, I always feel the need to take stock of where I am.. Where I have allowed my journey to take me. Perhaps, it’s this delicious soy chai that I am savoring, maybe it’s my favorite color of blue on the wall.. I don’t know. But when i listen to my soul.. There is something there, telling me that I need to slow down, and take it all in. To be careful, that I do not overlook something important. Something significant.

And so, I look again.

I find myself in a state of wonder. It amazes me the twists and turns of life. The domino effect of choices being made, and the unexpected outcome those choices can bring. Being a perpetual planner, I can see that life is trying to teach me flexibility, to teach me that it’s ok to let go of the reins a little.. Even if I feel like at times that might veer me off my chosen path. I can see that in my willingness to accept change and growth, I am allowing myself freedom to actually enjoy my journey, and not just project myself into my destination.. It’s this ability to enjoy the moment RIGHT NOW, that brings true happiness.

I am learning that with every day, every moment, life can bring you the most extraordinary circumstances. The challenge; and the true test of character is what you choose to do with it..