UG.

Jun 15, 2009 | This Is The Past

(WARNING: This post contains random bitching, and is not suitable for happy people)

Having an UBER bad day today.. Not sure I can fully explain it either. I am just in a terrible, horrible, no good, very bad mood.. And I can’t seem to snap out of it..

I spent last weekend with my sister and my mom.. Maybe that has something to do with it. ;) I literally gained five pounds from my mother’s cooking. 5 POUNDS!! Is that even possible over a weekend?? Yes, in fact, it is.

So, I am feeling uber ugly today.. Both in body and in spirit.. I’ve been trying to copy over my million + one photos I took over the weekend, and I keep getting errors.. My children CANNOT seem to get along today for any reason, I’ve got my favorite client breathing down my neck with a list of projects that just may never end, I cannot seem to get ahead of my finances whatever I do, the house is a mess from laundry and toys, I feel that in a hundred plus ways I am just coming up short today. (Hey watch it with the short jokes) And I feel that it doesn’t matter how hard I try, I can’t juggle anything today.

My bad mood started on the drive home yesterday.. It started with my dear mother, telling me to take a wrong turn.. Now, I was not upset at her for her misguided directions.. It was a mistake, I didn’t blame her, we are BOTH adults, and neither one of us saw the road that we were supposed to take.. OK.. We can turn around, and start over.. No Big Deal.. What pissed me off.. Was the way my FATHER handled the situation.. When we realized that we were lost, we called him for directions.. And instead of telling me how much longer I would need to stay on our current road until we got to a cross road that would take us down to the freeway. He only wanted to focus on HOW we could have missed the turn.. “Didn’t you drive up there using the same road?? How could you not take the same road home?” He wanted to place blame, and he ended up making my mom feel terrible that she had made a mistake, and it just made me really really angry. What an asshole.  WHO CARES that we actually missed the road.. Why place blame?? Just help us out of the situation.. The conversation ended up with me hanging up on him because he was being so degrading.. Then instead of keeping on our current road and finding a way back to the freeway, we just turned around and added an extra hour to our drive home. With my mom apologizing and kicking herself the entire way home..

Then, I stewed, angry at my dad for being an ass, and even more angry at my mom for putting up with his shit our entire lives.. UG.

Now, granted, these are not dire life changing problems.. I know that more than half of my trouble today is my attitude.. I missed my workout this morning due to two needy children just wanting to spend time with their mom.. They wanted cuddle time, and then I missed my damn window of opportunity.. But how could I deny them cuddle time? How could I deny myself? And you’d think that starting your day off with cuddle time would actually put you in a good mood… But between the whining that she is hogging all the covers, or she won’t stop kicking me.. You know.. It was just not a Pollyanna moment :)

I would  like to climb back into bed and NOT be a fully functioning adult for a day.. Is that asking too much? I was going to be getting together with Chris tonight, but am seriously considering canceling.. (I know, what’s wrong with me?) I just know that I will be terrible company, and I don’t feel like pretending, or for that matter I don’t feel like trying to make myself beautiful today.. I think it would take quite a bit of effort and maybe a magic wand or two.

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